04.12.19

The polyphonic nature of reality, monoculture, flying Nazi mice, and so on.

“If we knew how to center ourselves, how to look clearly into ourselves, and how to understand the meaning and fruitfulness of suffering, then the slightest gesture, the most imperceptible movement of the most unassuming of human beings, would reveal to us these abysses of sorrow or tenderness that remain open interiorly until the day when another pours light into them and causes life to burst forth.”—Elisabeth Leseur

Several years ago I worked in a bakery. I was not happy and I spent all the time I could in bed. One day when I arrived at work a woman had fallen out of the apartment above and hit the sidewalk. I didn’t see it but I remember being hyperconscious of the fact that not too far from me this woman had probably split her skull open on the pavement.

She lived. It turned out that she’d been seeing somebody and was trying to sneak out the window because she was getting a divorce and one condition of custody had to do with boyfriends and when they got to be around her children. I …